I may or may not have mentioned this before, I’m not sure. But if I have, I’m sorry. If I haven’t, then I’m going to talk about it again. Cause that’s how I roll.
I have some weird likes. Serial killers, psychopaths. The top of my list, though, is Stockholm syndrome. I don’t know why, but I am in love with this syndrome. It’s kidnapped my heart and I have become it’s slave (see what I did there? No? Aww…)
For those of you who don’t know what Stockholm syndrome is, here’s the wikipedia page. In short, it’s when the kidnapped person begins to relate to and may even fall in love with their kidnapper. Doesn’t even have to be a kidnap situation, a hostage situation can give the same results. I do believe that’s actually how the syndrome got its name. A guy robbed a bank in Stockholm, Sweden and took all the people in there hostage. They were in there for a few days, I think, and when they were finally released, they all had nothing but nice things to say about the criminal.
I have always wanted to write a story about the syndrome, just never found a way to do it. But oh, it sounds like such a great topic to write about. Makes my heart do little flip flops to think about it (see? I told you it was a weird obsession). But back in 2008, there was this person who held a contest on deviantArt for NaNo. The premise was to write a 50,000 word fanfiction. I didn’t hear about this contest until afterwards and all the winners were being announced, which is fine cause I don’t write fanfiction anyways.
But that’s off topic. When I looked at the news article on dA, the winner was a story called Stockholm. I went LE GASP! clicked on it like there was no tomorrow and began reading. It’s a Frerard (Gerard Way and Frank Iero from My Chemical Romance slash) story and while I’m not a big fan of Frerard, I read it anyways, cause come on! It’s about Stockholm syndrome!
So I read all 50,000 words in like, 3 days. Just ate it up (I then went to read the girls other Frerard stories and I will say, she makes me like Frerard, but I think it’s because she makes then like her own characters rather than in the band and all that jazz). And it was so awesome! I’m still in love with it to this day.
After that, I still wanted to write a Stockholm story, but after reading that pile of awesomeness, how could I? And would what I wrote turn into basically a copy of hers? And if it didn’t, could I even write something and think it any good when standing it next to hers?
I know, you shouldn’t compare your stuff to others because sometimes, you just won’t make it that far. Or you could be better, surpass the master and all that. But… her story is so damn awesome! I’ll give you a link to it: super awesome fantastic story link. Just as a heads up, the prologue is at the bottom, then chapter 1 is at the top, then chapter 2 is at the bottom. You’ll understand when you get there.
Anyways, it’s like I’ve got stage freight. I want to write a story about this subject but… I don’t know if it would be nearly as awesome! So what do I do… do I write one anyways, throw caution to the wind and say ‘fuck it’? Or do I back down and just enjoy the stories like that around me (which are few, but I haven’t actively looked).
What do you guys do when this happens to you? Has it ever happened to you? What was the situation? If it hasn’t, what would you do, theoretically?