|I feel… Cold.|
I feel stiff. Not from the gym, not from spending four hours on my feet at a birthday party, not from sleeping on a mattress that was a little too firm for my tastes two nights in a row, not even from carrying around my heavy ass over night bag.
That kind of stiffness wouldn’t fit in with the whole theme of this blog, seeing as this isn’t a blog of my every day life. It’s a writing blog.
So no, it’s not my muscles that are giving me trouble. It’s my writing.
As I said in my last post, I’ve been working on a new story. I love the plot, I love the characters, I love writing it… for the most part. It just feels so stiff. My dad says I have a nice informal voice when I write (which I like being informal in my writing. I prefer to be like the story teller in the movie 101 Arabian Nights (I pretty sure that’s what it’s called)). And I love my style of writing, don’t get me wrong. But I also rp, a lot. I don’t know if that’s affecting it (I think it is) but while I’m writing this story it feels very… stiff. Like I can’t remember how to write and make it sound right. The kicker is, while I was trying to fall asleep last night, I got up to write a paragraph that had dawned on me, and it sounded perfectly fine.
Maybe I’m nervous. I mean, it is going to be novel length and I don’t know a lot of what’s going to happen and I’m afraid it won’t make word count. Maybe that is it. I don’t feel it’s long enough, that there isn’t enough padding to make the whole story as long as it needs to be. But I don’t like unneeded padding.
I know the whole thing is to just write it and edit it later, but I don’t like doing that. I like it to sound right the first time. Yeah, I’ll edit it later, obviously, but right now it just feels weird.
Anyone else have this issue? How do you deal with it?